umagang-umaga sira kaagad ang araw ko. bakit ba may mga taong tanga?! bakit ba may mga taong ang hilig magsabi ng maling impormasyon?! gaya kanina. sabi nila kahapon meron na. tapos pumunta ako kanina, wala pa raw. nagkamali lang daw ng sabi. tanginang yan. mga bobo. ayusin nyo nga trabaho nyo mga gago kayo.
‘la na. sira na nga araw ko. tangina kasi eh. phaksiet. .,l,,
naisip ko lang: uso ba ang break-up ngayon?
wala lang. simula kasi june puro break-up na lang naririnig ko sa mga kaibigan ko eh.
"kuya wala na sina ganito at ganyan!"
"tol nakipagbreak na si ganyan sa akin…"
"alam mo bang wala na kami?"
"sempai, tama ka, may iba na nga siya…nakipagbreak na pala ako kagabi."
haaay. buti na lang kami pa. sana magtagal pa kami.
i feel tired. my eyes hurt. that’s what one gets from too much reading books that dated back the 19th century and was republished about 4 decades ago. that book can be very much considered antique. goodness! i cannot turn some of the pages without putting a rip on them. but it was one hell of a book. damn it is so good.
so much for that.
i feel bored. as always. sigh. have you ever felt that your life is a total waste? i kinda feel it now but then, every time i think of the night of june 28, 2006, i keep on saying that i still have a purpose in this world.
what happened on that day?
i was held up. yup. i was on my way home from ust. i rode a jeepney going to lawton. it was 8:30. there were only five passengers inside. four in front, one seated beside the driver. two men rode at quiapo. as the jeepney went up the quiapo bridge, one of the two told me, "hoy ilabas mo celfone mo! celfone yan diba?!" i said, "ayoko nga!" then came my most shocking experience yet. that man, with a 3-inch knife (maybe 4) almost stabbed me saying, "putangina tutuluyan kita!" the blade was about a foot away from my stomach when out of fear i shouted, "wag po! wag po!" he then asked his companion (who was so passive) to sit beside me. "pare alalayan mo," he told him. i was thinking of jumping out of the window since it was very big. but i held back. so i asked the man beside me, "bosing kukunin ko lang yung sim card." "sige!" he answered. as i was getting my sim, the one with the knife took the bag of the lady in front of him, opened it, got the celfone and returned the bag. then he approached me. "sim car sim card, akin na yan!" he said. he got my cel, told the driver to stop, they went down, and we were left there filled with awe. but i got the sim. talk about sharp mind. nothing was got from the other three passengers since they literally had nothing with them and the hold-uppers only wanted our celfones.
many said i was so brave. i had the courage to get the sim. i just answered them, "brave! i was damn trembling that night! hahahaha!"
i still feel a bit of fear every time i recall that incident. before, i was wondering how does it feel when you are in a situation of life and death. after that event, i knew the answer. and each time i recall it, i just bow down and thank the Almighty for the gift of life. i think this is may 3rd or 4th life. i almost died too when i was in grade 6 (but this would be another blog entry).
accept death.
serve life.
that’s the way of things.
the way of the Force.
i am the Great X!
Amen.
