SCATTERED THOUGHTS
so boring. and when times like this come, i tend to think of many things. like now. i am thinking when i will die. i just wanna know the exact date and time of my death. wouldn’t that be cool?
"this is where i say i’ve had enough and no one should feel the way that i feel now. walking open wounds, a trophy display of bruises, and i don’t believe that i’m getting any better, any better. waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and i’m thinking awful things, pretty sure that a few would notice. and this apartment is starving for an argument, anything at all to break the silence. wondering this out like i never wondered out, and this about the social as i get now. and i am throwing away the letters that i am writing you coz they will never do, i will never do, never. waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and i’m thinking awful things, pretty sure that a few would notice. and this apartment is starving for an argument, anything at all to break the silence. so don’t be a liar, don’t say that everything’s working when everything’s broken and you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the jokes on me." lyrics from the saints and sailors by dashboard confessional. i am listening to it now. nuts.
let’s say you have a dream of working overseas. you have a significant other whom you have loved more than all your past relationships combined. you have been together for more than four years. will you still leave knowing that once you do, everything will be over? will you choose career over love? or will you risk everything just to remain in the arms of your beloved, uncertain of what the future may hold for the two you but happy?
i feel stagnant. i think it’s time for me to move forward. but the problem is, right now, i haven’t had that much courage yet to talk. damn. this sucks.
i think the next american idol this season will come from the ranks of the girls. they are far much better than the guys. but i think blake lewis and chris richardson will enter the top 5 with melinda doolittle and lakisha jones. i am not sure who’s the other. well those are my bets so far. but sometimes americans are stupid. don’t ask me why. they just are. and there are times they are discriminating. may be this is just my hunch but it really shows. sometimes they vote not according to voice but looks. a good example is last season’s AI. mandisa is way better than katharine mcphee. i was surprised mandisa did not even reach the top 5. i think she’s the better choice. but still taylor hicks would defeat her. hehe. well i am a taylor hicks fan. mandisa is a good singer. but we have to understand that women naturally have higher voices than us men. but taylor hicks can sing high notes. aww enough with american idol.
my mind’s not really fixed on a point. no focus. scattered. this is what you get when you are alone and bored.
somebody kill me please.
